Category : Diary/Journal

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I'm persistent. You push me, I push back. You throw the first hit, I'll kick your ass and call it self defense. You tell me to go away, I'll linger. If you push me away, ill come right back. I'm not defenseless. I won't get into trouble for dumb reasons. I want to help you so good luck getting me to fuck off. I dont just give up in any circumstances. Give up on no one. Give up on nothing. I see more than you think so dont push me way. I'm more capable than you may think so dont doubt me. I dont doubt anyone. I put them to the test. Whether its a fight or feelings. There are some people i care about too much to test because if they knew there was a test they would react so I don't want to be a cause of anything bad. I've tested my step dad. We've had fist fights. That's how I found out he was all talk because I put him on his ass. That's the only fight I've been happy about. I dont like hurting people. I dont like the feeling I get. It's a feeling of betrayal and dominance. It sounds good but I dont feel like I've done anything good after most fights. Therefore id rather not fight if I have to fight back. If it's a fight that I know of win, I won't fight back. I'll let it happen because most likely there's a reason they are fighting me. So im persistent in not letting anyone get to me. To put all my anger out on a football field against people with pads so I know they're protected. To try my hardest to help someone I care about too much to let go. I persist.✊