Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

"Straight & fast" use to answer one question only: how will I ever get out of this labyrinth of suffering. For anyone that knew me, it was clear I wanted a way out, but [Berg], you became my alternative "straight & fast". See when people ask what it was like falling in love with you, that's exactly what I will say. It was straight because there wasn't a day where I questioned whether I wanted to or not, because there was no in between strangers and friends - we became lovers before best friends, and because when I [remember] laying next to you, it seemed as my mind was finally straight and maybe sane. It was fast because [I] never expected it, because I never saw "us" becoming something more, and because in a short amount of time, you became my addiction. I believed I had been looking at the response to the question incorrectly. Your eyes became my escape and your arms became my safety. You allowed me to fantasize about a future. It was your [love] that saved me and now has me lost. I find myself in a cloud at the bottom of the sea, it was too weak to hold my dreams, and I will scream bullshit until my voice gives out and silence is all that is left. I know it won't be easy and you know that I know it will hurt [you]. You'll learn why the snow makes the cemetery look so alive but you'll forget the way our eyes smiled, connecting us through an invisible thread.