I'm Sorry Read Count : 153

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*TRIGGER WARNING! SLIGHT DEPRESSION! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!*

Years ago, 
You and I were the best of friends. 

Apparently, 
I mistook everything. 
Everything. 

Lies. Oh the lies you told me. 
If I would've known they were lies,
We'd be nothing. 
Nothing. 

And it wasn't like you lied to protect me. 
You lied to hurt me. 
Hurt me intentionally. 

You lied about me. 
You lied about me behind my back, 
And to my face. 

You didn't even try to be my friend. 
But I constantly forgave you. 

I thought you struggled? 
Well you don't seem to. 
Maybe it was all a lie. Probably. 
But you claimed you healed. 
Did you really? 

You put me through pain, telling me you'd be there at the end, and it was for the best. 
But it wasn't. And you weren't there. 
You were never there for me. 

When I tried to talk to you about my life and my struggles, 
You would make up some excuse. How rude. 

You claimed so many things. So many lies. And that's not even the beggining. 

I mistook everything. 
Everything. 

You and I had long talks...
You were so supportive. 

It used to be that I couldn't describe our relationship. 
Now I can. 
With one word, too. 
Hate. 
Horrible. 
Everlasting's evil twin. 

Why was I so stupid? 
Stupid to think all these things? 
Stupid to think I'd actually think we were friends? 
Well... I hate to break it to you, 
We're nothing. 
Scratch that. 
We're ex besties. 

I loved you. 
Legit. 
I fell in love with you. 
But you broke everything. 
Therefore, I shouldn't even consider you my acquaintance. 

I have one last wish. 
That wish is that you find someone to love. 
Someone to betray. 
And be happy. 
But stay away from me. Because we're ex best friends. 

....... 
*AVERTISSEMENT DE DÉCLENCHEMENT! DÉPRESSION LÉGÈRE! LISEZ À VOS PROPRES RISQUES! *

Il y a des années,
Vous et moi avons été les meilleurs amis.

Apparemment,
Je l'ai tout confessé.
Tout.

Mentir. Oh les mensonges que vous m'avez dit.
Si j'avais su qu'ils étaient des mensonges,
Nous ne serions rien.
Rien.

Et ce n'était pas comme si tu avais menti pour me protéger.
Vous avez menti pour me blesser.
Me blesser intentionnellement.

Vous avez menti à propos de moi.
Vous avez menti à propos de moi derrière mon dos,
Et à ma face.

Vous n'avez même pas essayé d'être mon ami.
Mais je vous pardonne constamment.

Je pensais que vous avez lutté?
Eh bien, vous ne le semblez pas.
Peut-être que c'était tout un mensonge. Probablement.
Mais vous avez réclamé votre guérison.
As-tu vraiment?

Vous m'avez mis à travers la douleur, me disant que vous seriez là à la fin, et c'était pour le mieux.
Mais ce n'était pas le cas. Et vous n'étiez pas là.
Vous n'étiez jamais là pour moi.

Quand j'ai essayé de vous parler de ma vie et de mes luttes,
Vous devriez excuser quelque chose. Si vulgaire.

Vous avez réclamé tant de choses. Beaucoup de mensonges. Et ce n'est même pas le début.

Je l'ai tout confessé.
Tout.

Vous et moi avons eu de longues discussions ...
Vous étiez tellement favorable.

D'habitude, je ne pouvais pas décrire notre relation.
Maintenant je peux.
Avec un mot aussi.
Haine.
Horrible.
Le jumeau maléfique de Everlasting.

Pourquoi j'étais si stupide?
Stupide de penser à toutes ces choses?
Stupid pour penser que je pense réellement que nous étions amis?
Eh bien ... Je déteste te casser,
Nous ne sommes rien.
Scratch that.
Nous sommes ex besties.

Je t'ai aimé.
Légitime.
Je suis tombé amoureux de toi.
Mais vous avez tout brisé.
Par conséquent, je ne devrais même pas vous considérer ma connaissance.

J'ai un dernier souhait.
Ce souhait est que vous trouviez quelqu'un à aimer.
Quelqu'un à trahir.
Et soyez heureux.
Mais restez loin de moi. Parce que nous sommes d'excellents amis.

Comments

  • You Can Call Me Miss I Guess

    You Can Call Me Miss I Guess

    I'm honestly not happy with this. It should've turned out better. But oh well. I'm sure I'll make it. It's definitely not as good as I could've and should've done. Considering I've been doing decently well, I shouldn't rate myself with such low ratings, but it wasn't good enough for my satisfaction. I think next time, I'll do better. I'm trying not to write such dark stuff, but it's hard for me. Again, I'm not happy with this because it isn't detailed and is too shaky and has no proper lining. It's all built apon few stanzas that were good. But yeah, it's not as good as I wanted to do, but I'll make it, and try and do better next time.

    Jun 10, 2017

  • Jared DeMoss

    Jared DeMoss

    You are a great writer.

    Jun 10, 2017

  • Jeff French

    Jeff French

    I liked it

    Jun 10, 2017

  • Jun 10, 2017

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