Category : Poems

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By: Jeff stevens
It's been 16. Months, since being released from  the confinement of the cold pale prison walls, where I spent five years of my life holding on to hope.
It was there that I paid the dues  I owed em,  while I held on to those I loved, and lost.
They were times of hurt, and  years of saddness,  as painful as this was, I pushed right through, never forgetting where I came from or who I was.
I reflected back, to choices I made,  the people I hurt, and the lives I changed while  feeling there pain.
So as I sat and thought about my life, and the things I needed to change, I worked hard to better my ways, while leaving my past behind.
Now as I set here a free man, lost, lonely, And heartbroken,
There  was happiness for a time, and love for a season, as the drug of destruction, walked through,
 it took with it my life And all that i loved, and the people I lived for.
There were lies, and deception, arguing and hate, liveing on these streets, homeless and hurt, While dealing with my pain,
And though I tryed to hang on, the grips of death had a hold on my soul,
These were times I thought of suicide, and one night while setting alone in my truck parked back in holler,,
As the darkness  was closeing in I placed a loaded gun to my head,with thought's of pulling the trigger,
I turned up my radio to find the perfect song, while visions from my life flashed through my mind,
And as I closed my eyes to end it all, with tears flowing down my face, I placed  my finger on the trigger,
And what happened next well I was amazed,
As I went to pull the trigger I saw a flashing light, and heard a thundering bang, As the hand of God reached down pulling the pistol away.
And as time paused and stood still, it was there  in the mountains of the holler that the presence of God saved my soul.
And though I'm still homeless heartbroken, and lonely I breath the breath of life, and cherish each moment,  
and these things I will live for one day at a time.
This was a dark night of the soul, as I had went through deep bouts of saddness and depression, and I was pulled from this with God's love, and these two verses. That I heard.
Psalm 34:18-19 “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all.”
Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”