Category : Poems

Sub Category : N/A

Paper in place, the pencil in hand and all my thoughts although gearing me to write, have gone blank.  I had so many ideas, but my action to jot them down have turned nil.   My unconscious urge to express myself tangibly have become even more difficult to grasp even if the fuel is present.   Blank again, as it was yesterday and the day before.  Am i afraid to commit myself to expressing it for everyone to see, read and possibly share their thoughts back?  Creating a sudden relationship with strangers and the connection is our thoughts printed for all to see.  An intimacy is inevitable considering that i rather keep to myself in person.   Verbally i choose to remain sociably illiterate but by these means i pump myself to open myself fully to keep the relationship alive.   Yet i am blocked once again.   Can it be that the intimacy is too sudden, making this form of expression a conversation my mind isn't ready to tangle with at this very moment?  I have so much to say but maybe it isn't for the world to know further hindering any chance i have in indulging in a long lasting relationship where thoughts, ideas, passions, secrets, fears, beliefs, loves, hates and whatever else my heart feeds my mind to share with my significant.   I who have been the reciever of all other's words am not ready to share mine?  Writer's block almost makes me feel selfish.  Enough to vent about it at the least.  I am not selfish so why the block?  or is it just another form of what i have always done consciously and unconsciously all of my life.  Defending my soul from critiscism and possible hate from those who i fear will never understand my side, my thoughts and most importantly the anomalies that might challenge the norm.   I mean i like to think that i am normal.   I just fear that my norm is worth blocking from those who might just be crazier than me.  If i decide to unblock and i write, then i have intimately accepted the challenge to relate to the open mind of others as well as accept your idea of a relationship with me would be like.  Opinionated or not i am not afraid now to be as beautiful with my words as you are.  I have decided to unblock my heart to you as you have already done for me. You have motivated me to conquer this obstacle wholeheartedly.  I appreciate you. So with this being said, i have expressed my form of poetry in the form of what one might think is simply a paragraph.  I warn you, i am not technical but i will always be intimate.