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You really have a big heart, be proud of it. You might seem weak but the truth is you are strong, strong enough to be proud of the heart you have for others.
Someone will come into your life. Always remember that People come and go. And as they go, they will leave you a lesson. A lesson that you should learn from. 
One day, a stranger open his door for me. We talked, exhanged jokes, and laughed together. We had talked for days, until it turns into week, then to month. He opened his door for me, I opened my heart for him. I thought we were on the same boat, we were happy. I thought we were strong, I love him and I thought he feel the same way, I thought everything is fine. Until one day, I can't reach him out. No text, no chat, and no call for days. And days turned into weeks. I was so afraid to ask him, he leave me hanging. My heart is carrying a ton of pain and my mind is full of questions. I'm saying sorry, asking what's wrong, feeling alone. Then, one day I have decided to call him. He didn't answer. I kept on calling... Until I received the message that breaks my heart, its him saying sorry. Its him who wants to end up everything between us. Its him saying sorry that he's not ready to be with me yet. Its him giving up. It is really hard to let someone you really love go. It feels like a thousand knives trying to break your heart into pieces. I cried hard, I thought we are fine, I thought all is going well. I gave him all I can give, I love him so much. It hurts that the person you though of sending the rest of your with slips away. It hurts that the person you thought of being with watching every sun sets left you. It hurts that the person you gave your all is not ready and is not willing to give you even half of what you gave him. I'm hurt and disappointed.
The next day I woke up, I realized that there's more to life. So I started picking up the pieces of my broken heart which is never been easy, don't know where to start. Its my heart that breaks, my mind continues thinking of him. Half of me want him back. I told you, its never been easy. I never regret anything about us, even though it hurts like hell I never regret opening my heart for you, I never regret loving you. I am happy that I met you, I really am. I am grateful that our paths crossed. I am thankful of the experiences we have, of the memories we made. Thank you.
But still, I have chosen to be happy, as others always saying that happiness is a choice. But as for me, there's no other choice but to be happy. Life must go on so I started picking up every pieces of my broken heart and enjoyed doing it. 
I have decided to be happy and have some time for myself. I have decided to feel my brokenness. I have decided to be that strong independent woman that I thought of myself. And now, I can say that I'm better than before, braver than before, and wiser than before. I am proud of myself having a big heart.