Category : Poems

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You act as if nothing happened 
Like you didn’t do anything wrong 
Because you can’t imagine the things 
My Mother had to go through 

She had to explain to two young kids 
One of 5 years 
One of 3 years 
That there Father didn’t want to see them 

She had to go through every question we had 
Why did you leave? 
Why don’t you want to see us? 

She had to guide us all alone 
We didn’t have a father figure 
We were surrounded 
By all girls 

She had to learn to trust another male
Not only for herself 
But because of her kids
And the previous damage that was already caused 

She had to explain to her kids 
What having a step father meant
What having half siblings meant 
And what or if there was any difference at all

She had to go through 
Every time we would silently 
Walk to our rooms after a birthday party 
Because you had failed to show up

She had to sit there 
While we pondered every question we could 
With her knowing 
That she didn’t have a single answer 

She felt like she had 
To keep your wishes 
Of merry Christmas 
Secret as not to spoil the jolly mood

She felt as though 
She had to tell you every day 
For ten years 
To come see your kids 

That you were invited to see your kids
That nobody was stopping you
Not her, not her husband
Not her family, not her friends

She had to take care of two kids
Who didn’t understand why 
Five years of their life 
They had a father

And then one day 
They wake up
And they just don’t 

And despite all the things my mothers endured 
You still act as if nothing happened 
And that no pain was caused