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How am I suppose to forget 
How am I suppose to move on 
From the past 
If every time I’m finally forgetting 
I’m pulled back into the lane of suffering 

Easter time rolls around 
And you aren’t on my mind 
But lo and behold a card arrives 
Bearing my name 

With enormous regret 
And pitiful sorrows
I tear open the card 
And read it aloud 

I stare at the words
Looking for more
But continue to reread 
The Happy Easter love Daddy 

Once again I’m casted 
Straight back into 
The inescapable sorrows 
The valley of pain stretching through my entire soul

Weeks later and I find an escape 
A momentary brief one I suppose
But am escape nonetheless 
And I breath a sigh of relief 
As I can again try
And forget you

Christmas rolls around 
And with great glee and great joy 
I celebrate with my family 
I take pictures and videos 
And be overjoyed 
By the pure look of bliss 
On my siblings faces

But yet again here comes the time 
As I’m presented with another letter 
Bearing my name
And with haste I tried to resist the temptation 
But I had to know what he’s written on the paper 

So with delicate apprehension 
I open the letter
Only to stare at the exact words I’ve seen before
Merry Christmas Love Daddy

And once again I’m casted back into that pain 
No matter how hard I try to forget 
No matter how hard I try it always comes back

My birthday rolls around 
A time where I should be happy
A time where you think a father would be present 
To see their kid grow up
I know if I was a parent I wouldn’t ever dare miss it

But as my day came to a close 
What a suprise 
Here appears another letter
Once again bearing my name

And predicting that the same dissapointing words
Will be scribbled across the page 
I don’t open it fast 
I instead determine if I should even open it at all 

My mind wins though 
Instead of my heart which was telling me it couldn’t take 
Another blow like the last
But my mind was determined on finding out 
Whether his words were true in each letter

I open the letter 
And upon no ones suprise 
There is the letters I know all to well
Happy Birthday Love Daddy 

Love Daddy 
Love him 
Why? 
All I’ve gotten to prove your love
Is a few cards I received on a few important days 

Yeah I’ve received a phone call
But that’s after I had a talk with my Mom
And her being a caring parent 
And you being the subject of topic 
She contacted you 
So you contacted me

You can’t just be a no show 
And send cards
And think I won’t be affected 
You can’t think that just because I was young 
I wasn’t going to hurt 

You can’t expect me to ever forgive 
To ever forget
And sadly I say 
You can’t expect me to love someone 
I can’t remember 

I can’t love someone I know nothing about 
All I have to show you love me
Are cards 
And phone calls

But I can’t just love someone 
Who caused me so much pain 
And someone who doesn’t even realize 
The consequences his actions had

So when the next holiday rolls around 
If a card ends up in my hands 
Bearing my name 
It’s going to stay like that 
Because I’m not opening it
Just to see two words

That you’ve never even said to my face 

Love Daddy