Category : Poems

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I tried calling your name...
Though you claim you don't hear
I don't think this is a game
Please just respond to my pain
Even when you're not ever here
My voice in your head doesn't remain 
So I sit and wait for you alone 
Until I smell your favorite cologne 
That's when I know you're home
I will call out your name to welcome 
You from a busy day...
But you look past my face 
And walk away 
As if I were a ghost roaming around 
Staying close as I am forever bound 
I sit there 
I stare
From where you came in
I remember when... 
I used that portal
But now I'm stuck a weakly mortal
An ill being that no longer enjoys
But suffers in her once lover's silence 
I'm paralyzed by your ruthlessness 
You don't give care of my uselessness 
Just mumble and curse of my name
As if I were an old, ignorant thing 
As if you struggle with yourself 
But I'm not really going on much, too
I hope that you will be able to tell
But I'm somewhat one you will repel 
So you won't ever know...
That I'm also in the same boat
That I'm just as depressed 
That I'm just as desperate 
I can't cling onto what I held dear
That dearest whom turns a blind eye 
Though It wasn't like this before 
I remember when we walked... 
Happily walked through those doors
Everytime I've called out your name 
You'd smile and call out my name back
That was then but now isn't the same
Soon again I call out your name
Still you don't give me your attention
Your devoted heart for me I began 
To know is in...
A forever suspension
I still sit there and stare 
At that door you barely make it out of 
I know you can't forever cling onto
The nature without 
Me at your side
Though I know you don't dare
To give me one glance only...
Just one glimpse of a glare
And when I'm finally giving in
Giving into the angels whom call out
My name
Therefore they say
It won't be long before you cry
And call out my name 
Once I'll be forever gone...
Now you walk in from that door
From a busy day 
You can barely stand 
You can barely breathe 
You don't seem so irritated anymore 
Is it relief?
You were finally able to look at me
Like the angels said...
You call out my name once I leave
And as the angels said 
You will  be calling my name once...
Your corpse no longer sheds a single 
Tear 
As it lays besides mine 
And last the angels said 
We'll be back calling each other's name
Once we're both dead.