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Do I look at the past of my life,
Or do I move on to the future of what I am unsure of. The loops of uncertainty is getting harder to handle. My past I already know the pain I lived through. Now I have to wait and see. 
How do I deal with something like that? Knowing that I can't control what happens next, or even say what I should be doing. I want to know the road ahead, so I don't make a wrong turn. How do you prepare yourself for the unknown? 
Do you sit back and just wait it out in a corner, not sure how to react? Do you make every moment, and take the risk of living? I have heard the words, "Live everyday like your last!" How can you do that with worrying about what is up ahead? 
What is a good escape, if you can't even escape it your mind? How do you change a thought process if it doesn't stop putting your down? How can you make yourself feel better, if you are always finding your flaws? I know a lot of people say be happy with you how you are. Are they happy with them? Or are they just saying that to try to make their self feel better? All I know is that thoughts flow through my head, and all different. One from another they change, and make you feel worse than what you did about the last one. 
When you have feels that can't be control, and you feel like you are going to freak out on anyone or anything, how do you make yourself feel good about you? How do you try to understand what is going on when you are so scared? That is where flight and fight come in. Do you fight through it, and be proud? Or do you flight back to your safe place, and feel worst than the anxiety made you feel?
How can you make you feel good if your mind doesn't  agree? And your heart wants more in life, but even stepping out side is hard? How do you get stronger, when you know that everyday is a hard task in its self? You hear, just let it go, and move on. What a lot don't understand is we try to let go, we even wanna forget trust me, but sometimes the pain keeps us sane.