Category : Poems

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What can I say, I literally hate that day. The day where blue skies turn grey. The day I'm stuck here fighting the thought of you away. The day I wish I didn't share your DNA or even your last name. The day that reminds me of all the pain, and it brings back the feelings of the shame and the blame. The day I feel like my tears fall like rain, like I'm losing my mind and going insane. But nobody knows the thoughts that run through my brain. But the struggle is real and these tears stain.
I don't understand why you left me, why you broke my heart and left me feeling empty. You're never gonna get to see, just who I turn out to be. Now I'm almost twenty three, and every day I'm paying a fee. I pay the cost of you being free. What really happened back then- nobody agrees. They say it's between you and me, but I don't remember I was only three. All these memories I'm supposed to see won't come in clearly. But I remember the pain of my heart being ripped out of me. Struggling, fighting to stay on my feet, but I just kept getting dizzy. For years dealing with these gaping wounds that no one could see. Getting more and more infected but nobody saw them bleed. So today I dropped to my knees, and I'm begging please. Take this pain away from me, I don't want it alnymore. It's blinding me.