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Weeks ago all I could was stare at the white wall housing only 
My clock 
The time reading 4:52am
I had been awake for hours 
Staring at the clock 
I had put the kids in bed at 8:00pm 
Which was 3 hours after you had left 
They wanted to say goodnight 
So I gave you a call
But it said the number was terminated 
I didn’t know what to tell the kids 
Except that you’d be home in the morning 
I was sitting there snuggled up with a blanket 
And a cup of coffee 
Waiting for you to walk through that door
To be alright 
To be ok
To come in and tell me this long story and taking half an hour to get 
To the point 
To give the kids a hug goodnight 
But that time had never came 
Soon the clock had read 7:00am
It was time to start the day
Take Isabel and Caden to school 
Get Mira to daycare 
Go to the store 
Get my workout in 
Go home and get ready for work 
Get to work for 8 hours 
Go pick up Mira 
Get home to Isabel and Caden 
Feed the kids
Help with homework 
Let them watch an hour of tv 
Put them to bed 
Clean the kitchen 
Go to bed
Repeat and repeat for days on end
After 4 days I had gotten the call
Your friend Charlie had seen you at a party
Having the time of your life
Multiple times you were spotted 
Enjoying your life
Not a single call
Nothing 
You had told me you were leaving for 2 hours that night 
Now weeks later and you still haven’t returned 
I don’t know what to tell our kids
I don’t know what to tell Mira when she gets old enough to ask 
Where her father is
I am alone in this adventure 
With these three kids 
Because you decided to vanish
To abandon me and our kids
And all I can say is
I hope it was worth it abandoning us 4 
Because I ain’t gonna accept you if you come crawling back to us