Category : Diary/Journal

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What does a new start mean to you? So many people have their own meanings.Well, my meaning of a new start means : Stop trying to end life...
Yes that might sound very insane for some, but that's right..I have really bad anxiety, And going to school makes it 100000000xtimes worse for me.
I remember once, I had to talk to someone, and my eyes completely blurred up,my voice had seemed like it cracked in a million pieces..I even almost felt like crying just because I felt,  well my anxiety felt like I said something wrong...It makes no sense looking back to it today, but when I was much younger it had been a big deal. 
Because of my anxiety, I would repeat things over and over, it would haunt me, still does... it's like living in hell, something telling you constantly "What the fuck are you thinking" It starts to make you feel depressed... you know?
I know this isn't the best writing you have probably heard from this app, but this is very deep for me.
Anywho, I had thought of making a new start, no more anixety would make me want to end life anymore, I can't let something mentally get to me.
A new start for me has just began, not sure how much I will go into this "new start", but I'm praying for that best.