Category : Poems

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I don't know what to do I feel like a loser, patiently waiting for my moment to write this down on paper. I can't stop it now I'm going through the worse, I'm not okay can't you tell l guess I'll just have to go first but it still hurts.
My mom is dead worried she saw who I was, I went to call 911 but instead I locked myself in my room destroying my love. I'm not okay anymore I fell to the floor, I started crying out tears until I couldn't take it no more.
I want to fucking die I'm done with life, maybe I'm getting hurt by my own words but that shit ain't right. I'm scared of myself I'm worried about my mama, what the fuck am I doing feeling like a shooter.
No matter what I do nothing here can help me, I'm not making excuses but I am trying to get em to heal me. I'm not feeling okay I'm feeling like a bad guy, but I'm not though look at my bloody eyes.
I'm crying in my sleep God why is this happening to me, I don't want to feel like this please don't leave me. Fuck all this I will self harm, in my room alone trying to stay calm.
I have nothing in life I'm scared I just nees to die I can't even think about the good I can't even decide. I have alot of people but it hurts to talk, I'm in the after life with my aunt as we take a walk.