Category : Diary/Journal

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There once was a time when I had low self-esteem - lacking self-respect and felt no self-worth. I was convinced that I would never amount to anything in my life. 
I allowed other's to walk all over me like a doormat, I didn't care. Taken advantage of, it didn't matter. Disrespected, degraded and done dirty on many occasions. I felt like I deserved it all. I was a menace of society and nothing more. That was then but this is now. 
I roused one morning, along with my conscious mind. I lay in my bed for what seemingly felt like a lifetime. I bursted into tears, feeling nothing but guilt and shame inside my soul. Immense pain from within was tearing me up and eating me alive. I was broken and that's when I seen the light. It was time to put the pieces back together and it would take time and great efforts but certainly not impossible. 
Over time, I learned to build myself back up to the confident woman that I am today. I've obtained my self-worth but in essence, I've obtained my self-respect and I promise on everything I love I will never let that slip away from me ever again. 
Recently, I've been thrown back into a similar situation. Let's face it, I'm a billion light years away from perfection and I find myself being a bigger pervert than a vast majority of the male sex. A few weeks back, I wrote a few stories on here and let's just say that my little "whore stories" fit right into the adult category. I had never written a sex scene before and I wanted to give it a whirl so that's just what I did. 
Subsequent to the publishing, I was messaged by an individual, being a man of course, complimenting my writings explaining how he enjoyed reading them. That's when I kindly thanked him for taking the time to acknowledge them. It's a wonderful feeling to hear nice words being a relatively new writer and all. I'm always open for any feedback I can get. It gives me an opportunity to take in suggestions and new ideas. Well that was only the beginning of this individuals attempts to make me feel like a complete downright prostitute. 
The following day, I received another message from this man and it was a little more sexual and let's keep something straight here, I'm not the one. I was told that he was feeling "hot and bothered" and a little bit of loneliness. I felt violated. 
I was a lot of things in the past but being a whore wasn't one of them. After considering the whole situation and how that man made me feel, I was disgusted. I never wrote those stories to arouse anyone by no means. I am married, I have a child and I'm not interested in arousing any man except for the one I'm with. I will gladly continue to share my stories on this kick ass app, however, I'm keeping it inspirational and uplifting because I would really hate to contact a spouse to fill them in on the current situation. I am not a mean woman but at the end of the day when one consistently wants to cross that boundary and does not take no for an answer, we will have a slight issue. I don't believe in committing adultery and I'm definitely not the one to try. 
Besides that, I love this community so rock on! Read on! Write on! Or whatever gets your boat floatin' on. 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚