Category : Diary/Journal

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Time. I have always waited. It seems like my entire life has been on hold in one way or another. It may sound like a rant,  or the perspective of an adolescent to pound my little fists and whine for what I want. Me me ME! But the truth is,  I am weary. 
I knows whose I am and in my deepest heart I know that God's got me. The say that God always answers prayer,  in His timing,  not ours. I believe that. How does it go? His response is always Yes, No or Wait. 
So I just want to put it out there. I want a woman in my life. Someone I can love and hold close to me; someone I can hang out with and who will be my partner. I want someone to kiss and taste and who doesn't mind telling me about my ass when I do something stupid. 
I tried to take matters into my own hands by signing up for a dating website. As you can imagine,  it didn't go very well. I had been warned about it but did I listen? Well no,  I just admitted that I didn't. I beat my little fists and did it my way and when all was said and done,  I sat blinking in the shadows wondering, "What the fuck happened!"
Does it mean I stop trying,  just hope it falls into my lap like something out of the movies? Even in this,  I don't know what the hell I am doing. No,  as hungry,  desperate and lonely as I am for this,  I decided to just do as I have always done,  just close my eyes and pray. 
So I wait...