Category : Poems

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Im so sick and tired of myself and i hate what i see in the mirror in front of me. my eyes are red and puffy and my nose is stuffy. i guess its better than feeling nothing its always good to feel something but not really when you feel like your nothing and you will never live up to your own expectations and you keep your self from your own goals and you dont stop yourself you just feed into your depressing thoughts and you make it worse and you make everyone sad and your dad wishes he had a son so you feel bad. thats some of my thoughts just putting them down to move them to a place so the thoughts in my head aren't cluttered in my mental space. im really sad and mad but i show a different expression on my face because i can't come face to face with my self when someone asks me whats wrong and sometimes i ask myself the same question and i don't even know the answer because i feel like i can't understand myself because im confusing a complication a complex word that no one knows the definition to and nobody cares to find out the meaning. but why would they? because we still don't really know the meaning of life itself and we don't even know whats really out there. so many things uncovered but there are more things to be discovered but no one thought of finding me so to everyone im nothing and its like i don't even exist. Does anybody else feel like this like they dont exist. its hard not to cry and i try to pass all my trials with a smile on my face but its fading away along with my pride and hope inside my soul. whats the piont of me being here at all. Is this my last final fall?i wouldn't know because i know nothing at all