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If you wish to understand me, to truly know me then listen closely and hear me through. I will Express who I am but in conjunction with this my thought form shall remain true and on its natural course. Perhaps when I'm finished you will understand this persistent feeling of loneliness. So listen closely, because just this once I won't hold back.
In our current understanding of intelligence we label the exceptional Especial. This is a fault and societal standards, for all that a prodigy, a genius, or an athlete May achieve is limited only by their Humanity, the same limitation you and I have. We label them Special by giving in to our darker aspects, insecurities and doubts. It is a way to say they are unique, but more so a way to relieve ourselves of expectations to achieve the same capabilities. Where do these thoughts come from, the shadows and insecurities that seem to be present for our whole lives? 
Consider the story of Adam and Eve in relation to modern day. Adam and Eve were innocent and pure much like a child, then a serpent tempted Eve to eat the forbidden fruit, she then passed it to Autumn. What do we know of men and women in this regard where women are first in men II? This correlates to our understanding of maturity where the woman often mature faster than the males. Therefore Eve's are more likely to achieve deeper thought first, opening her up to question her existence and doubt herself and then later all the Adams.
Now consider the serpent who tempts Eve, in present-day this would be the person who shows us The Dark Side of existence. Whether intentional or unintentional they teachers of Lies, worry, the trail and the like. When we think of the serpent we often linked it to a whisper, this is the result of a subconscious understanding of the Serpent's role as that voice in the back of our heads. This is the serpent without kapural form occurring when we pick up the Shadows here and there without a specific person impressing upon us enough to play the face of the serpent. So the darkness comes to us as The Whisper of the world's faults. Once we give Merit to this whisper and question what we used to know we often carry Darkness with us our whole lives tucked away in some corner of our heart.
Understanding this, no special is a product of the whisper. For a brilliant mind can waste away if not used, and the clueless can lead an age of innovation with proper effort. That being said, of this category known as special I have defined three delineations and are as follows:
The Genius: People of knowledge or knowing.
The Gifted: People of wisdom or understanding.
and The Talented: People of passion or emotion.
Now knowing that special does not exist outside insecurities, know that genius and talented are a Corruption of gifted. Geniuses have largely abandoned their emotional human nature in favor of facts and logic, simple and organized. The Talented have abandoned facts and Logic for the beauty and complexities of feeling. They do this because their minds nature leans towards one side and in the face of difficulty they favored the path of least resistance.
Of the three delineations, I fall into the category of gifted. I don't just know or feel but understand what I know and why I feel the way I feel. This isn't perfected, for I allowed the corruption in, when I was young. It has been with me all these years feeding off of all I could be and telling me I was nothing. Only recently have I began to peel this Shroud from my skin like a leech and now recovery has begun allowing me to reconnect with what I knew before I listened to The Whisper. I won't say no one ever played the face of the serpent or at the very least the voice, but the darkness is vampiric in this oNE regard. It may pound on your door but you must choose to let the darkness in. It should then, go without saying that you must lead the effort in casting it back out . The good people in your life can help of course, but you have to lead the charge. And so this is me, I am gifted: a person of wisdom and understanding. And this is my brilliance, complexity and Madness. Above all, this is why even though I know you're all here for me I still sometimes feel alone.