Category : Poems

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So I took a sleeping pill. 
For hour I lay awake staring at the ceiling, 
Thinking of what I've said, done and how things could have been.
Thinking of tomorrow, and how it might be different, 
And I lie awake because I don't know if I'm brave enough for it. 
I lie awake thinking until my head starts to hurt
From imagining a world I'm whole and not broke. 
I see this world and it's so crystal clear, 
But only when I'm lying awake trying to disappear. 
And so a took a sleeping pill. 

I took a sleeping pill. 
And pray to sleep, because in sleep I might dream. 
But actually who wants to dream
When the images seen are like that of a birds broken wings? 
The bird tries to keep moving but the pain holds it hostage
And my wings, just like that birds, no longer flutter.
But rather I analyse all the little things in my head
And I tell myself I won't look any stronger if I'm both asleep and dead. 
So I took a sleeping pill.