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 I promised you I would never hurt you and swore to it on everything I loved. Those promises were broken. I deceived you with my infidelity and betrayal, then once it was all said and done I still made you appear to be the biggest piece of shit that ever lived. You were just a floor mat and I walked all over you, I took you for granted when I should have been honoring you. I did everything but that - that's when I up and left you.
I made you hurt and I even made you cry on occasion. You tried your hardest to move on but you couldn't get over me. Most would have thrown the towel in and walked away for good. You didn't. All you could do was contemplate on fixing me and whatever else was broken in our lives. You took our wedding vows serious. Why didn't I do the same?
You always fulfilled your promises to me - your word was genuine. I'm sorry it took me twenty years to figure out what's been right in front of me all along. I must have been worth it but I can't figure out why. Perhaps in another twenty years I'll have an answer. I never wanted to hurt you or anyone else I loved, but I did and I'm sorry. The guilt and the shame continues to tear me up inside. I'm certain that it will for as long as I'm alive. 💔