Category : Poems

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Sometimes I just can't breathe. I wake up in the morning and get going. I'm dressed, driving and singing along to the music in my car. Then I get a glimpse. In my mind. A flash. A vision of something that I know will never come for me. A happy ending to my fairy tale. Because I never got my fairy tale. I got what I warned my nieces not to settle for. A one sided relationship. One where I am unable to tell my partner when he's wrong, because I'm talking shit. I can't come home and vent about my day, because I'm always complaining. I can't chastise my daughter because I'm a bad mom. If the house is a message it's my fault too. I may have paid for dinner but I have to wash the dishes as well. All while he lays there. In the AC living room. Playing FIFA on his PlayStation. Complaining that he doesn't have the new console. But I can't call him out of his compalinging because I'm talking shit. Then our oldest daughter comes to living room to sit and relax and he snaps at her the moment her ass hits the couch for her to go and clean something. But I can't bring that to his attention because then I'm talking shit. All the while I can't help but think of all that I gave up to be with him. And I remember that karma is always watching and keeping tabs.