Category : Diary/Journal

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Remi, where did you go? 
Why did you leave? My heart breaks anytime I hear your name or whenever I think about you in my head. I still daydream about our future together of what it would look like, sometimes I keep imagining you walking in the house or just seeing you somewhere in public, but I never do. I don't know how to fight off this pain that I'm feeling in my heart and I don't know if it will ever be fixed leaving so many pieces of my heart shattered laying on the ground. It feels like everyday I'm drowning in my faults questioning myself why didn't I stop those people getting away? Why didn't I stop you from drinking? Why didn't I just let you go back to Michigan city? But I didn't want to you to back being homeless, I wouldn't be able to function right knowing you're on the streets even though it's something you are used to but when someone who loves and cares about you, will always worry. I miss your beautiful bright ocean blue eyes that slowly takes my breath away, I miss your laugh that makes me laugh back all the time because its adorable, I miss your soft lips kissing my lips the way it made me felt, wanted..I miss hearing your snores laying close to you watching you sleep peacefully, I miss how you made me feel safe everywhere we'd go like I had a brave bold shouldier standing next to me. I'm in love with you that I could scream it on the top of my lungs with all the air I have left in me and wouldn't care who looks, they don't know us, they will never know us and they will never love like us. I love you Remington, I'm always yours until death may do us apart.