Category : Poems

Sub Category : N/A

10 years ago today if anyone told me I would be where I am, I would have laughed in their face. No way could I evef, never ever, become one of those women. I knew my worth. I knew my place. I knew what I was capable of. 
Now, I look back and bite my tongue. Everyone's struggle is so different yesterday so alike, it's hard to put into words. 
Love. The poison of life. I love being in love. That's where the problem lies. The grass isn't always greener. In fact, the grass isn't always grass. 
The guy I'm with, he has it made. I do everything around the house. I work a full time job. I gave him 2 beautiful little girls. 
And he gave me...
A slap in the face with reality. There is no fairy tale ending. There is no prince charming. There is no partnership. There is no working together. There is no everlasting love.
The sooner we can accept this, the sooner we can move on. To what?
The final chapter. Welcome sweet death with open arms. Life has shown it's true colors. It showed its pretty colors and days of laughter. Of happy memories and dreams of what could be. 
Then.. . Boom! It was gone. 
So let the next chapter come quickly. For my soul is tired. I look for passion and I have none. I look for compassion and cannot find it. I look for love... And it's diluted. There. But diluted. 
Diluted love...it's called...routine. you do it because you have to. Because it's expected. Not because you want to. Not because you choose to. 
Accept it.