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Fck it. I'm scared. I'm scared because I'm so happy. I love the people in my life and I have rid of the people and things that bring me down. I am looking forward to the future. I'm getting older and everything around me is changing so I'm just trying to change with it. So why am I so scared? I'm scared that I will loose this. It has taken me so long to get here, and I'm worried that I will grasp on to the things and people that I love most until I end up pushing them away. Why can't I just simply be? Why can't I just be happy that I am happy instead of worrying about how long it will last? I don't know. I may never know.

It seems like all I can do is learn from my mistakes, because I can't change my past, but it is my past that shapes who I am now and what I will choose to do in the future. 

Yes, I don't know how long I will be happy. I don't know why it can't last forever. And I don't know why I am so scared of loosing what I feel so safe around. But I know that I will be ok. I know that I will continue to make more mistakes, and most importantly, I know that I will continue to learn from them.

Comments

  • Very gripping, well done

    Dec 17, 2018

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