Category : Poems
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For the longest time I have been afraid,
At the age of forty, I'm just learning that fear could be used in many different ways,
Though, the ways I choose left me with consequences that I am still paying for today,
See, I was a loved child, by the lady I was taught was my great grandmother until I about six,
This is when I learned that mom wasn't actually my sister and that's about as far as that story went,
So obviously, I moved here to Houston, TX. with my mom and the first thing I had to face was abandonment,
Then abuse, from my mom friends and their kids just for the hell it,
I was drowned twice before the age of eight,
At the age of 12, I was choked by my stepfather that almost stood six foot eight,
I told, family members, friends, anyone I knew,
For I don't only fear for my life, but I also have a baby sister too,
I came to the conclusion, in order to protect her I have to learn to protect myself,
That fear turned into anger, in return, made me loose respect for myself and anyone else,
Now, I need people to fear me,
In which, lead me in and out of the penitentiary,
I'm married now, eighteen years with son,
I don't have to tell you about all the things that I have done,
Yet, I need you to know where I am coming from,
By not having that support, someone to listen and believe in me,
I made mistakes by giving everyone that ever hurt me that power over me,
I was thinking about my future and where I am now,
I have business plan that's needed to help the environment as well as decreasing the chances of our communities having to deal with Zika or the West Nile,
While, giving people this type of power over me, took my dreams from a possibility to just a thought in the clouds,
Don't make my mistakes,
Find with makes you, you and be the best you can be at, no what what anyone says...
You only have one life, live happily.
