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In my earlier years I never considered the "what ifs? in life. I wanted to grow up thinking that I would be forever young. If only I could take that back. As children we never fear the inevitable. It wasn't until I turned forty that I put " Life's terms" into perspective. 
I reflect on my son and his well-being. What if something happened to him tomorrow?  His health?  Safety? I couldn't imagine losing my baby and to any parent who has - may God bless you always. 
I consider my safety and well-being more than ever before. If I died tomorrow,  how would that affect my son? I take these things to heart. I have put my well-being at risk for more years than I want to think about. I still do because these cigarettes certainly don't benefit my health. For twenty-eight years too long.
When it comes to being fully aware of my surroundings, I apply myself to always be on my toes and stay alert because you never know when you will need your guard up. With age comes wisdom. Is this normal? Oftentimes I question my own normality.