Category : Diary/Journal

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I feel alone. Not an at-night-in-a-big-room kind of alone, but an alone in a vast abyss of darkness. No one knows what I'm going through, no one feels what I feel right now. And every passing second, I fall deeper down. My heart aches for someone to be there with me. Someone to hold me close, tell me it's going to be alright. But that means I have to dump all my emotions on them. They'll have to see me cry and go through something they don't fully understand.
I try to tell my friends, I want to tell them, but I can never say what I want to. 3 of my friends know that a wear a mask, and why. None of my other friends think I'm any more than a laughing, careless, happy teen, with a life of joy in front of me. But none of that is true. I turn away from them when I cry. 
Today had been really hard. All the sadness of the past 6 months has hit me. So I feel alone in the darkness I'm falling through.