Category : Diary/Journal

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   We all need a strong foundation in our lives. Sometimes, I like to think about the things I've done in the past for others without asking for reward. My feelings about this become complicated after doing so much though. Sometimes I think about how lucky others are, but the funny thing is I am lucky. I have extremely good luck or I have extremely bad luck sometimes. Is it wrong of me to want fortune though. Even if I would have good fortune I know I wouldn't keep it simply for myself? I would use that fortune to help others. It's just in my nature.
   I know I keep my full potential on a leash, because I'm afraid of what I might be able to accomplish if I release that leash. I have faith in myself but I'm afraid of that faith. Afraid of what may happen if I reach the true position that I deserve. Sometimes I turn back and think that everything I've done has just brought more suffering on me. I know that's not true as far as the people I've helped are concerned, but that's just the way things are sometimes. Maybe one day my greatest wish will come true. At this point, that's all it might ever be. Just an empty dream wasted on a pathetic life. Sorry, didn't mean to sound so depressing. I wish all those the best for fame and fortune. Maybe one day I'll be able to show my "wings" to the world.