Category : Poems

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I am over here..
Thinking about someone I can never be anymore,Wondering when my anxiety about what had happened will go away forever-after all it was in the past!
Here I sit..
Trying to stop the harsh thoughts that run rampant through my brain,the painful but vivid memories that have haunted my thoughts for years now-never leaving me to feel any peace. 
Here I lie..
Not wanting the world to know about my dirty little secrets,for fear that I will be judged based on the fact that I did not say no or turn the person in after I left the place where it happened-but how could I have had the chance to say no when I wasn't even conscious to know what was going on? 
Here I am keeping quiet..
Wanting my kids to never know about anything that has happened to me,they don't need to know and I've already swore that it's going with me to the grave. If they ever found out,I know there would be questions that I don't even have the answersto myself. Do I want to protect them from the evils of the outside world?yes! 
But what's done is already done. 
Nothing I can do will change that. 
So I sit here living my life..
While waiting for my time to be up. 
So what's left of my soul,if I even still have one,can finally rest in complete and utter peace.