Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

Hey...you havent texted me since erlier today. You havent replyed yet. Did upset you by leaving so suddenly? Im sorry. So sorry. I left because of him. How you were getting upset at us for worrying about you. He lies. You just dont relize it. He confessed his love to you. Saying hes loved you since sixth grade. And im sorry for calling out his bs. Im sorry for worrying that this guy,this guy who i dare not call a man,would hurt you. Im sorry that i dont beleive that he has loved you since sixth grade because you guys only re-connected a month ago,after three whole years. Im sorry that i dont beleive this guy loves you considering his past four girls who he has cheated on and left hurt. Im sorry that i dont beleive he loves you after he tried asking me out only at least two weeks before now. Im sorry that im scared that he will sexually assault you after he has done it to ME and four other girls. Not to mention that you know all this. Yet you dont care. Im sorry i got jealous because your giving him another shot but not me. The person who has actually known you for three years and actually fell in love with you during the time. Im sorry for getting jealous that you were considering dating him,HIM of all people,even though you were sweet talking,making plans,and saying you actually had a crush on me. Its funny you know. You did tell me you were bi-polar when in came with how you reacted to love but i didnt think you would ditch me so fast for that guy. The f-boy who only wants to get into your pants. And you know it because you even told him he dosnt know you. I do. Oh,and what happened to "Im not considering dating a guy,ive only been thinking about girls lately. You're probably thinking "Fuck that thought." And you know what? Im sorry for loving you no matter how much you toy with my emotions,and build me up just to break me down again. Im sorry for loving you. But i cant stop. And i stopped caring if you hate me for it. Because i would even scream to the world that im in love with you,that your smile drives me insane,and how your laugh makes me crazy. Or the fact that your eyes sparkle when you're happy. And i cant help loving all sides of you,including your dark side that you tend to hide. I even still love you,even though we both know you used me,and threw all your emotions on me,all your stress,and hurt me in doing so. I even still loved you when you admitted to it,or thought aweful things about me and told me. I even still loved you when you broke me down and thought i was in the wrong to cry. And i keep using the past tense "loved",wich,is not right....because i still do. No matter what you do to me. Ill scream it to the world. I love you.