Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

How to I speak too you? Why did something that used to be so normal seem so hard now? Being with you makes me so happy, but it hurts.. Filling my heart to the brim with joy, just makes me realize the ever growing void. I couldn't of been happier spending time with you, but I still wanted to disappear. My mind just screams at me "WHYWHYWHY" as I struggle to stay with you in reality. Showing you everything made me scared so very scared. Why you would even want to know the insane me confuses the hell outta me. But maybe tonight with new memories I'll be able to sleep. Maybe not have dreams that make me so happy then having to wake up to the reality. That I'm alone and they aren't coming back, but I still have you and that's all I really need.