Category : Diary/Journal

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Sometimes you wonder "Do I really deserve this?" I ask myself that everyday I'm with my best friend. She's so kind, understanding, self-sacrificing, protective, and absolutely adorable person you could ever find. I'm not any of those things nor deserving of someone like that. No matter how much I put her through she's stayed with me. I attempt to help her but can't ever really do more than cheer her up. Honestly I've called her dying at the hospital crying, pushing her to every possible limit of kindness. She's stayed, it's not fair how she can be my world and I cannot even help her a bit. I want to be better for her so she can be proud to have me as a friend but, I'm so stupid. Feeling like a leech just draining her, scary part is she might be reaching her breaking point. I know if anything happens again she'll break, I'm trying to change but my mistakes just keep piling up. I want to give back every bit of kindness she's given me. I want to make her happy and see her grow up to be the amazing person she is. But honestly I don't even know if I'll make it to the end of highschool. Only thing keeping me going is her.