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I just want to not feel crappy. I continuesly look for something or someone to help me feel something or lift me up but it doesn't work. There's always something that happens that ends up making it all fall apart like a house of cards. I'll even have it right there and...poof, gone. Why WHY? God damn it why is it always happen? Can't i be happy for a little. Will someone not try to change me for once if they end up going through with trying to date me. It's killing me, honestly, it's causing me physical pain because I watch all these people live happily even if they've been through a lot. I want that, i want that so badly but i just can't grasp it. By god it's tearing me apart. I can't handle it i can't handle it. Some nights i wish when i close my eyes that i don't wake up. Living in a nightmare where I'm constantly being killed is better than how I'm living. I want it to end, please someone just end it already.
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i cant make it end... but i can tell you this. you dont have to go through all that pain. just know, people care very much about you, i would say that i do, but i dont know you, but i can say, i will always be here to help. i know what its like to feel like your not cared about. but i got past that feeling, and i know you can too, i know that you can get past this, why? because i believe that you can!
Jun 20, 2018
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Róise McQuaid
im sorry. I know how that can feel. I feel it every day. It stops me sleeping. to make matters worse, I have IBS, so my emotional pain, causes me physical pain, which causes me even more emotional pain and it goes around in a circle. i know what it feels like to think you're a mistake. I know what it feels like to just want it all to end. I think you should keep a journal or something. I do, and it really helps. you can look back on things that made you feel like the world was ending, and remember how you got through it, so you can get through it this time. head up. I dont know you, but if I did I'm sure you're a greag guy. yes, learn from your mistakes, but dont let anyone change you. keep trying. please. you will find someone who loves you, but you need to love yourself first.
Jul 24, 2018
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