Category : Diary/Journal

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Hi..I'm Ashley and I may not have mentioned this little piece of info when I first began typing on here but it might let you see who I am more as a person(even though you don't get to see me in person). Here it goes:I am proudly bisexual. :)
Yes that's right! 
When did I notice this about myself you're asking? Well I would have to say I took notice when I was probably in middle school. That's where I met my first ever real girlfriend..at first we started out as really close friends,but the more we hung out with each other the more I felt myself catching feelings for her that I thought would be more reserved for guys. But somehow during my 8th grade year we began dating and for some reason it just came naturally. We really clicked. 
Yes she's the first one that I had sex with,yes she was my first kids but our relationship only lasted until my jr year of high school because at the time my ex boyfriend kept coming around and didn't know about it. I ended up messing the relationship up because he was being manipulative as far as my life was concerned and we ended up breaking up. The guy ended up being one of my baby daddies and she's in New York(we still keep tabs on each other even though we don't really talk). 
My mom knew nothing about our entire relationship-she just had thought we were good friends..even though I took her to my homecoming dance and had sex with her in our house. But I finally came out to my mom When I became a senior in high school because I couldn't hide it anymore. Instead of being accepting of it..she thought I was going through a phase. We have not discussed it to this day so I don't think she'll ever accept it. 
There are a few of my family members that have accepted me for me and love me just the same.
Yep I did end up coming out on my Facebook,and just a few months ago came out to my dad via a letter. It was very scary. 
Where am I at recently with my life You are wondering? Well I am married with 2 kids and I do have a girlfriend who has a fiance with 2 kids of her own(yes my husband knows and is ok with it). Do I have any kind of sexual relations with her? No.. To be honest we haven't even kissed yet and I really don't know why. 
I have come to find out that just because I'm bi there are a lot of people that judge me and misconstrue the whole meaning of being bisexual-but I can't control their opinions. I am very happy that I have accepted myself instead of living my life a lie. 
No it doesn't mean I am going to have gfs a lot,this one had been very good friends with me in the beginning and became close before I was with my husband. No matter how you look at it love is love i guess I just have a relationship with both of my best friends. But No matter what,my kids always come first.