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Nobody ever wakes up one morning  and says "Hmmm I think I'm going to start using drugs today, why the hell not?" It never transpires that way. Many of us have become addicted after losing control as a result of curiosity or having the opiate prescribed to us. As for myself, I was injured in a horrible car accident three days after my thirtieth birthday  (April of 2007) then prescribed Oxycontin and Vicodin BOTH for a long period of time. Approximately one year later, I was cut off from all of my pain medication at one time. I never abused it by any means, not once did I call the doctor's office attempting to get my refills early or give them any indication that would put up a red flag. I begged and I pleaded with them to do a taper or slowly ween me off and you know what the nurse called back and told me? "You'll be alright, you may feel a little tired for a few days but it will subside." Okay, we'll see how that works out for me...it certainly didn't unfold the way she anticipated. 
Subsequently, the withdrawals surfaced and I felt awful. I was sweating, shivering, I was nauseous and I couldn't get more than an hour of sleep at night. I was miserable and the only thought that swept through my mind was death. I wanted to die rather than feel the anguish, physically and mentally. The only way to define it is having the flu times ten. That's no joke.
In this case, I believe that the prescribers are at fault for these issues. I've heard other people in recovery discuss this same kind of  issue time and time again and no physician or prescriber should be allowed to abruptly stop ones medication intake at once. That's what I call "inhumanity." I strongly disagree with it. There should be a law in the medical practice that a patient on long-term pain/opiate medications be weened off over a short period of time to avoid further usage of illicit drugs BECAUSE that's what many people, LIKE MYSELF resort to, leading us to places we'd never dreamed of. Some physicians are nothing more than legal drug dealer's. Just my opinion.
Two days ago, someone overdosed and died in the basement of my friends house. This guy overdosed several times in the past few months. This time he wasn't so lucky. That terrified the shit out of me. Everyone in the house thought he was clean but that's what we've all said at one time or another. It's a reality check right in front of my very eyes when I watched the county coroner put his bagged up body in the back of that vehicle. Even though I'm no longer in active addiction it still sunk into my brain and made me think twice and hard. This drug is out of control and more people than ever are losing their lives. Just say no, please. It's not worth the risk of formulating a habit, or even worse. Let it sink in, especially to all you youngsters.