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I want to find out how my ex girlfriend is doing I have not seen her for 6 years I miss her more than words can say I still love her with all my heart I still can't get over her or move on its to hard she is the woman of my dreams but she split up with me I don't no why she said she can't be in a relationship and I can't see her again it broke my heart even now I got to try my best not to cry because I miss her so much I want the best for her even if she is married with kids I'm not sure if she is married or got kids but I no she always wanted to get married and have kids when I was with her she is the most beautiful girl in the world to me but she use to always say she is ugly I use to say how pretty and gorgeous she is but she use to not like me saying it so I stop saying it and showed her how beautiful she is because to me she is the most beautiful girl in the world and what made me love her more then her looks was her personality she was the kindest person in the world I won't no what I did wrong but I regret it I wish I asked her will she marry me before she split up with me but it's to late now I was saving up for a expensive ring before I kept a secret till I got it I regret not telling her about it now I got the ring the same day she split up with me I was going to ask if she will marry me but she said she can't be with me any more I gave her the ring and said she can keep it she try to give it back to me but I said she can keep it even give it back to the shop to get the money I said I don't mind as long as she is happy that's all I want is her to be safe and happy I will always be in love with her I just wish I could find out if she is ok I worry every day about her but I can't see her if she won't let me she knew I was so in love with her it drives me crazy that I don't no how she is if she is ok or not I want to help her I still got a picture of her she use to look on my Facebook but I don't think she does that any more she did say she loved me still but can't be in a relationship any more or even friends because I loved her to much to just be friends with her and she said if she got a new boyfriend one day it will hurt me to much to see them together I said yeah but her feeling are way more important than mine she said I could not handle it she is right in a way but I just want to see her happy even if she got married and have kids with someone else that's how much I love her I was the luckiest man in the world when I was with her she is so so amazing she use to make me so happy when I saw her smile she only has to smile or say one word and I can't resist her we use to go church together and town even though I use to have social anxiety I use to go out because she wanted to my social anxiety is way worse now I just did any thing to wants to see her smile and be happy