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Hi every one this is how I feel People who don't have social anxiety don't understand how hard it is I'm trying to lose weight at the moment I got a treadmill and a multi gym at home I live on my own to but people moan at me they say just go to a quiet gym but it's to hard for me to even go out to the corner shop and that's only across the road from me so going to the gym is almost impossible at the moment it's so annoying when they moan and don't listen to what I'm saying I get to scared to argue with them like my mum she says just walk up the road up the hill when I'm bored get out some where I no she is right I should but I can't it's to hard I just think don't people listen it's so annoying I want to do stuff but I can't it's to hard it's like it goes through one ear and out of the other it's like they think your just being lazy but your not I don't choose to have social anxiety it's like you're being punished for it. it's so annoying and some times scary when they shout at me I no I should not be scared because I'm a man but I can't help it I want to tell people what I get scared of but it's hard because they will laugh at me I wish I could go out and play football but it's to hard for me to go out and go to football stadium I wish I could go to Tottenham new Stadium when it's built I no it's going to be some thing I can't do because of my social anxiety their will be to many people their I could not handle it I some times get migraine's when I go some where I can't handle I'm sorry if some of this says rude but I just wanted to say how I feel please don't be angry with me or scare me thanks