Category : Diary/Journal

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There's not a minute that passes by where I don't think of you.  I constantly go between wanting you to be my baby forever and being excited about all the amazing things you'll do in this amazing life. I find myself contemplating on the past twelve years, where they all went and the handsome young gentleman that you have become.

Lately, my days have been grey. Missing you has never been so difficult and the anguish inside is tearing me to shreds. I miss your hugs, your kisses and your "I love you's." Your smile and laughter. But most of all, I miss your love.

Now I'm just awaiting to rouse from this horrific nightmare. I wish this whole thing was nothing but a bad dream. As I strive to remain in good spirits, fake a smile when need to be or ham it up that I'm alright. The reality of it - I'm not alright. In fact, I'm dying on the inside and I don't have it in me to go through this one more time.