Category : Books-Fiction

Sub Category : Drama

Ashlin - Don't

As I trod into the school gates, I watch as leave part as the shuffling sounds of scuffed boots edge across into Hell. We walk like zombies , mindless. Blank. Empty. Even after being in this building for a minute I can already tell this won't be a good day. 

I drag my feet up the stairs, my shoulder bag swing back and forth with every motion. I settle down near a bench and start drawing in  my sketchbook. When you went through hours of therapy a day, you kinda have to learn a new skill so you don't make eye contact. Mine was drawing.

Two girls come and sit next to me. One has bright red hair with black highlights in it, the other has a short pixie cut and tinted blue edges. The latter looks over at my drawings and, basically, marvels.  I hint this was one of my worse drawings, but clearly not in her eyes. Red-and-black girl also has the same look of shock on her face. The introduce themselves, pixie cut at Hanna and Red and Black hair Tanzin. I say my name is Ashlin as I shuffle further down in my seat. I don't do well with socialising. I promise then to show the rest of my drawings at lunch as I hurry off, not knowing where I am going. 
  I bump in to Carys on my way into Block 2, sitting quietly and reading. I don't know how she copes. I can barely, though it costs me a lot to keep under control. She looks even thinner than usual, throwing a piece of gum she hurriedly stuffed into her mouth for 'Breakfast'.
My breathing speeds to a dangerous level, so I run into a nearby cubicle of a bathroom. I pull out he compass I packed for math. I am dirty. I am unclean. 

I cut. Three stripes of seeping red blood are hidden under my school shirt and blazer. I walk at a quicker pace ,  making it look like I mean to get somewhere. When really, I am blindly walking through the crowds like a bat in front of the sun. As I walk into the classroom I barely recognise as my form room, I see Hanna waving and patting the seat on the other side of her, just to the left of Tamzin. I gladly take the seat, hoping hat I wouldn't have to sit somewhere else. 

- End of the Day -

I walk out, not so zombie like as before. My heart is filled with happiness,  I am clean. I step carefully on the sidewalk, so not to touch any cracks. My fingers skim every lampost ,  my feet click together as I pass a white car. I see my yard in the distance. My new yard. I think of all my friends back home ,  and I feel myself breaking down. As soon as I enter the house, I run to the bathroom. 

I lock the door, throw away the key and begin. I wash my hands. Once. Twice. Three times. Four. Five. Over and over, cleansing my body, freeing it of germs. Making myself feel normal. When I emerge from my cavern, I see Mum standing there. With a sheet of paper in her hand. My new schedule.

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