Category : Diary/Journal

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Everyone always tells me to keep my head up.
Everyone tells me to just stay strong.
They say "everything will be okay just listen to your heart and just listen to everyone around you you will be fine nothing will come between you and your fate and if it does just look at it and say you are here now but you never stay for long." I don't know if any of this is right. I don't know if any of this is wrong. All I know is that they keep telling me not to die when I really want to. All I think about anymore is dying. I told my ex that I am going to commit suicide, but he keeps telling me not to. I don't know why he even still cares and loves me because of everything I have put him through but he does. The reason I'm not dead yet is because I promised him that I would wait until Friday if I was going to die. Right now it's really hard not to just go pick up a bottle of pills and dump the whole thing down my throat but I'm not doing it because I still care about him. I made a promise and I'm sticking to it. Skiler if you read this I'm sorry that I am going to die very soon. Good bye.