Category : Diary/Journal

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I still remember when I was in highschool and I was wondering the halls lost trying to find my class. It was such a scary feeling that we all had in school, who would've thought that there were scarier things in life then just missing 5th period. I guess highschool is just it's own little world, like a secret society that noone really knows about unless your living inside it. It feels like it was just yesterday I was in math class falling asleep or just day dreaming because for some reason the algebraic equation was just not cutting it when it came to being interesting enough. My teacher would always call my name in class because she knew I didn't have enough f*cks to give about what was going on the majority of the time I was in her class. Everyone in my class always looked at me with astonishment when I didn't pay attention because for some reason I never suffered real consequences for not doing homework or answering correctly in class. The only reason my math teacher had given up on me was because my attendance was the worst in the whole class, noone in the school really believed in me besides my study hall teacher and she was honestly the most positive person I had ever met. The reason I always missed school was because I felt like I really stood out, I had all the characteristics of what was considered a "loser" in my school, which was my love for reading, my passion for art, and my awkward shy personality. To this day I still have social anxiety, and most of the people who meet me probably still look at me with wierd looks because I just don't fit in. I'm shy yet brave, I'm awkward yet goofy, I'm nice yet I have a resting b*tch face, yes it's alot to take in but I guess my whole life has been a mystery , anyways back to my rant, I feel like if I would've had more guidance in my life I would've probably tried more and raised the bar higher for myself.