Category : Diary/Journal

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When nothing is left everything is all gone and no one to call my friend no one not a soul not anyone all alone lost without a purpose all I can do is think of it and how it makes me feel so good as I searched around like a blind person not even realizing I'd lost myself along with everything knowing I didn't have to but I giving up on myself and anything or anyone surrounding me I've seen myself before but no longer know myself no longer there I'm just simply an illusion in my own mind why am I so I torture myself I couldn't even jump and I'm closer to the edge than ever before Imagining the relief of my burdens within my life full of Journeys to find me who I am who I could be or what I want weighing up on my shoulders never found peace in life I never been so depressed but can't shake this thing called addiction it's got me and I'm hooked never have I felt so alive and invincible enjoying myself as well as life but alone all so alone lost everyone including my own children and scariest thing about that is not sure if I even want a life with them back because deep down I don't want to change I love it more than the air that I breathe