Category : Poems

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Waiting in fear 
Of what I may hear 
Struggling to keep up
With a normal atmosphere 
No matter the pain 
It's important to maintain
And now pay my due share
Should I have stayed
Where I once was 
Have I now become another's strain
 I can only bow my head 
And ask up above
God please lead me in your way
I feel lost and scared today
Am I strong enough
To work again 
Am I gonna be ok
My body says no
But those around me
Seem to think it's all fake
Atleast without a Dr's say
In which I Anxiously await
Hoping they're right 
And that I am wrong
I owe everyone I know 
And of course I need to pay
Back what has generously been given my way
Sometimes I wished I would have
Never said anything in the first place
Then by now it'd all be done
This life gone in the setting sun
No worries of trying to keep up
Seems that everyone knows but me
Of just how I should be
Yet they don't realize how hard I fight 
Against fatigue
And chronic pain
Anemia 
Foggy brain
Depression and
Feeling faint 
Blood loss
And cramps all day
Just to name a few
I don't want to be a burden to anyone
And now it's too late to turn back to what I didn't have in the first place
I'm scared and hate this wait 
Fixing to take on a job
Without debate
I guess atleast I can pay my way up until I can't
So doc for goodness sakes
Let's get these results up on the plate
So I know my future fate
Of which anything I can deal 
But it's the damn wait that kills!