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Has anyone ever been in a long relationship ( mines being 11 years) but still feel so alone and like if you do all you do for nothing but to always feel sad and as if you don't know whether your coming or going? Well that's exactly what I feel like. My husband and I have been together 11 years now and have 3 kids we are raising together. We Been through a lot and still built a very strong relationship. But for the last year I just feel like it's not there anymore. One day he is so in love with me. The next day he is in his own world  and when ever the feeling arouses I get treated as though I am not shit. Hours later I am then expected to act as though nothing ever happens. How can I just keep acting like nothing happened? I hide a lot of it and cry myself to sleep more than ever lately. I truly am tired of feeling this way. 
Yet I am a great woman. I STAY home 24 7 taking care of our children, our house, cooking , laundry and any and everything else everyone needs and wants. I kill myself making sure everyone is Okay and comfortable but yet I feel like not one soul could give a crap if I'm okay. Do I need anything? Am I comfortable? Am I tired? Do I need a helping hand? Do I need some rest or be catered to for the day? No not at all. And as a woman I continue on and do my job to the fullest. I truly just want to be loved, respected and appreciated. Is that to much to ask for? Am I expecting to much? Sometimes I just don't know.