Category : Diary/Journal

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I have nothing left 
You drained me of my love 
 and made it hard to trust 
and now you left  
 But Nothing in my 
heart thrives more to be better at this cause the life i live is becoming so  lifeless
. It me who is hurting inside 
     not you or him 
Tell me god can you help with this?
am i so fucked up that there is no returning to who i was. 
I use to love with a soft heart and good intentions 
And i always gave more chances then one 
But people are so cold hearted  they ruin shit 
Like my trust and even my  chances for a healthy love 
 i can no longer love a man the way he deserves it
I use to  care so much it made me sick to my guts
Now i just care if im getting hurt or not 
 I use to put him first before my friends right or wrong its him i would side with.
But now im so broke  i only think of who he puts me infront of 
I use to uplift him
I would  put his ass right up on his own throne.
Now im only worried how he could make me feel
 nd which seat he sat me upon.
He no longer uplifts my heart
 And i can no longer pretend that its his heart  that i yearn for 
We are both toxic
 its not healthy to stick around this
 But ending it would  be way to easy 
He will walk away without a  thought to shit 
Were both so stubborn 
 neither of us can put our pride up
 so we stayed till one of us could not  bare to stick to this relarionship now we not even friends  it's funny how life is 
you do the right things for all tje wrong ones and now i stand against the opposites of the right ways to love
 now its me out here hurting the ones who give me their trust.