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I think if i didn't write and totally express every bit of emotion into these words, through my expression and my tone, I woud have taken my life a long time ago.

Not that I don't sometimes enjoy life. Writing is great, nature is wonderful and music soothes my soul. I had a great childhood and I'm so blessed for that. Some really important people have gone from my life over the past 15 years and it's so heartbreaking sometimes.

Sadness isn't even a thought in my head. Yet, the feeling is overwhelming and needs to be expressed.

Through more than a sense of deep loneliness and isolation, I have to just write. My thought patterns sometimes don't contribute to getting the things i deeply want out of life.

I guess I should focus on being in a more positive state. This does work for a time but every few months I will find tears coming up behind my facial expression. Which sometimes can be described as stoney and blank.

I feel like I have a lot of love to give but no one to express it to.