Category : Poems

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I came to the point of my life where I messed up miserably, I pushed the ones I loved away and now it's eating away at me, it's killing, breaking me, I wish I could just numb this pain that aches in me, I wish I could just close my eyes and everything would be ok again, I wish I didn't have thoughts of suicide running through my brain again, I wish I could just disappear for a while, leave the heartache and pain for a while, leave this emptiness aside for a short period of time so I can just unwind. I came to the point of my life where I don't know who I am anymore, I cry on the bathroom floor because I can't take it anymore, but I pick myself back up and walk right out the door but the sad thing about it is no one knows what I feel inside, I hide it so well that no one knows of my pain I hide. No one understands the struggle I face, it's killing me, I'm miserable and no one will ever see it in me. I lie and say I'm happy but I don't even remember the meaning of being happy anymore. It's sad to realize everything you been through didn't help shape you, instead it mentally fucking raped you, now you're a burden to your own self and there's nothing you can do but carry on with your day cause you have to.