Category : Poems

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I wear this smile to show I’m happy, but it’s an illusion.
I tell you I’m okay and life is good, but it’s an illusion.
I act like I don’t care, but it hurts me so bad. 
I watch as you ruin my life, and it drives me mad. 

This illusion, this fake facade I’m eluding and showing you is getting harder to pull off. My tricks are running thin and I can’t think of any reason why I shouldn’t be gone. Music and drugs keep me afloat but my weapon is drawn. Fully loaded cocked back aimed at my skull and poof brain meets brawn. Before I’m gone as I float away into an abyss of darkness I see your face and struggle to find and harness the strength to tell you I loved you. And it’s not your fault, you could never have saved me no matter what you thought. Just remember how I was not how I am, remember the smiles, jokes, laughs and all. But remember it was all put up as a wall, because it was all an illusion after all. I wear this smile to show I’m happy, but it’s an illusion.
I tell you I’m okay and life is good, but it’s an illusion.