Category : Poems

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If I could go back and relive my days 
Sometimes I wonder what the hell would I change 
If I studied more in school what would I become? 
A scientist, an astronaut walking on the sun? 
What if I could change all that I've done? 
Tell my old self the truth when she's young 
So today I wouldn't be so hurt 
To be growing like a seed from others dirt 
But time traveling doesn't exist in my world 
So I'm stuck with my past and my old shattered pearls 
I cry haunted tears that won't leave me alone 
I scratch away the pain 'til all I have is bone 
I've been hurt so much that I call that my home
And I'm so used to smiling that its turned to stone 
I pretend everything is fine 
though I've lost myself 
Like a drafted design 
I'm going to need a some help 
To finish my story with a happy little ending 
But so far I'm still stuck in the damn beginning 
I'm trying to learn from my mistakes 
Though it's hard to grow being held back by old hate 
Sometimes I wish I could go to sleep 
And wake up to find all that was a dream 
I'm living in a nightmare all day constantly 
Trying to fight off the demons that's grabbing at me 
So I pull out a paper and pen 
Jotting down all my emotional sin 
To cleanse my mind of all this confusion 
For my heart to stop aching like it's running out of beats 
To overcome my anger and make the tears retreat 
To strengthen my spine as I take a seat 
To relax my body as I can finally breathe