Category : Diary/Journal

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Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning in a tub of water with hands around my throat choking me to death and a part of me wants to let go and blackout hoping something peaceful and happy is waiting for me on the other side but the other part of me is fighting and trying to breathe and open my eyes hoping someone will save me soon. 
The music and the memories that haunt me inside my head get louder and I feel like I'm running from my own life with nothing left but a dead past and death in front of me, I watch everyone I love either disappear or turn on me and feel like I've been both back stabbed and abandoned. I used to fear darkness but now I like it because I feel comfortable in it but I just wish the dark clouds above my life would go away forever.